Ever since I have got Mike outta my life it has been sooo much better. I am happier, excited and looking forward to starting my new journey in life. This is my journey, not yours, not his, not anyone but my own. I am 23, not 12 so its time to grow and stop putting myself first. I am ready to do that.
I have started just doing things for myself. Doing what makes me happy. I have left my job at the sports bar in downtown Orlando and I am now starting a new serving job at Disney. I am looking to go full time, hopefully within the next few weeks I can get that started. I have strong hope that I can do that, if not, I have to look into other options for health care for the baby.
The weather has been beautiful and I have been taking advantage of it by laying out by the pool, going to Typhoon Lagoon, and going to the beach. I have loved every moment hanging out with my friends and relaxing. They are all very excited for the baby and the little one will be loved very much, and I am looking forward to them meeting the baby. It will be very interesting to see how the baby reacts to all of the people being around. With me as a mother, and Mike as the sperm donor the baby should have no problem with being outgoing so it will be fun. I have an ultrasound appointment this upcoming Monday, so it will be fun to see the baby as an actual baby, and not a dot. I am hoping that I get lucky enough to maybe get a glimpse of the sex, if not I will find out May 25th. I am still hoping for a boy and can’t wait to find out what I get.
I went to Vegas for a few days with my real dad, stepmom, and two half sisters for a get away that was very relaxing. We went and saw the Hoover Dam, which was absolutely fascinating. It is amazing what we could do back in the day without the technology that we have today. Being in Vegas was the first time that I missed actually drinking. L Being around all the drunk people, and all the beautiful drinks made me think about drinking, but oh well. It is the small price that I have to pay for my little munchkin. I started to get my belly bump while I was in Vegas, and was sad at first because I was hoping it would wait atleast for a few more weeks, but the munchkin decided to say hello already. I am looking like a basketball, which makes me think it’s a boy. I think I have pretty much caught ya’ll up on my life so far, and I can’t wait to get more stuff to tell ya.
I have decided to end each blog with a song that sums up how I have been feeling these past few weeks, and this time it’s a song about the Mike situation called No Surprise by Daughtry. This song makes me feel happy and powerful. When I sing it outloud I feel so strong on the inside.
(And I hope.. and I hope..)
I've practiced this for hours, gone round and round
And now I think that I've got it all down
And as I'm singing louder, I love how it sounds
'Cause I'm not taking the easy way out
Not wrappin' this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why
It's no surprise. I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed 'til today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise
It came out like a river, once I let it out
When I thought that I wouldn't know how
Held onto it forever, just pushing it down
It felt so good to let go of it now
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why
It's no surprise. I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed 'til today
There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow
There's nothing here in this soul left to save
Don't be surprised when we hate this tomorrow
God knows we tried to find an easier way
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise
Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The lovin' look that's left your eyes
That's why this comes as no, as no surprise
If I could see the future and how this plays out
I bet it's better than where we are now
But after going through this
It's easier to see the reason why
It's no surprise.. I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed 'til today (stayed 'til today)
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise
Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The lovin' look that's left your eyes
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise
(And I hope, and I hope, and I hope, and I hope, and I hope.)
The kiss goodnight, it comes with me
Both wright and wrong, our memories
The whispering before we sleep,
Just one more thing that you can't keep
I've practiced this for hours, gone round and round
And now I think that I've got it all down
And as I'm singing louder, I love how it sounds
'Cause I'm not taking the easy way out
Not wrappin' this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why
It's no surprise. I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed 'til today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise
It came out like a river, once I let it out
When I thought that I wouldn't know how
Held onto it forever, just pushing it down
It felt so good to let go of it now
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why
It's no surprise. I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed 'til today
There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow
There's nothing here in this soul left to save
Don't be surprised when we hate this tomorrow
God knows we tried to find an easier way
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise
Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The lovin' look that's left your eyes
That's why this comes as no, as no surprise
If I could see the future and how this plays out
I bet it's better than where we are now
But after going through this
It's easier to see the reason why
It's no surprise.. I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed 'til today (stayed 'til today)
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise
Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The lovin' look that's left your eyes
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise
(And I hope, and I hope, and I hope, and I hope, and I hope.)
The kiss goodnight, it comes with me
Both wright and wrong, our memories
The whispering before we sleep,
Just one more thing that you can't keep
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